The difference a day makes....

A life re-starts.....while another is ending. My eldest daughter kept her job against all odds (is there a more understanding employer in the world? I don't think so...!). And another, last weekend - age 20 - left this world for peace, after a battle with leukemia. A friend's niece - in Malaysia. Half a world away - but I shed tears for her. Or did I shed tears for my own daughter, and her continued existence...my gratitude for this? I don't know...all I know is that something sprung to mind when I heard of Chet's niece: "Day is for those who can stand the light... The long night is for those who light the world." I told Chet this was a quote from TS Elliot - but I think it came from me. Through me.

Where does knowledge come from? Wisdom? I know people who have been everywhere, done everything - and who are as innocent as a blade of grass. Is this the result of knowledge, of wisdom? To reclaim innocence? I know people also, who have been nowhere further than 50 kms of where they have grown up, all their lives. And the wisdom, love, and knowledge they have to give is immeasurable. Do we gain wisdom, knowledge...love? Or do we simply open to it, accept it? Can we look for it? Or is it beyond looking - is it within...? I do not claim any of my own "wisdom" - I do not live my live wisely, I feel. I survive it. Until I stop surviving. I have searched - and stopped. I have prayed - and stopped. I have feared/loved/railed/cried - and stopped. As all things stop. I know I want so much to honour the life I have been given - and to honour those in my life. I try - and often fail - but I keep trying. Is that enough? Thank goodness these are my meanderings, and that no one else has to suffer them unless they choose to. *smile* But I thank whatever powers that be for the opportunity to put this somewhere. To put me somewhere...even if only in an anonymous blog.

Thank you Bill Gates.